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A Pleasant Day

That's what I expect it to be today. 

Anyway, it rained this morning. I was going to wash my car. No worries though, I am happy that it rained. I can wash the car tomorrow morning. I'm still put a lot of thought into car parts and garage upgrades. I think that I will get a mid-rise scissor lift for my garage. I'm torn between a Twin Busch and a Nussbaum lift. There's about a $1000 difference between the two. The Nussbaum being more expensive. The drawback I see of the Twin Busch is that it says it takes 8 weeks for delivery, plus there's two accessories I would need to buy. Which are extended ramps to drive onto the ramp and the mobile kit to allow me to move it around. The Nussbaum comes with the mobile kit and I'm not sure if extended ramps are needed for it. I am also unsure of the amount of time for delivery. If it is half the time or less to deliver, maybe the extra $1K is worth it. I may need to send an email to both places and ask.

The Elkhorn, NE water tower. The one thing I remember the most about my home town. June 20th, 2014

A praying mantis on my car at work - June 20th, 2019

June 20th, 2020

Productive Day

I was feeling down Friday afternoon and I felt that I did not get anything done except my normal day of work. That night, I told myself I would get a lot more done than just playing video games for Saturday. I can say that was accomplished. I got up at 5:00 AM, ate breakfast and did my daily post. Around 7:45 AM, I pulled the car outside and washed the rear end of the car. The reasoning was because I wanted to clean underneath the license plate in the back. I had removed it before washing. Washed with soap and water, I sprayed it with iron remover. I was surprised at the amount of iron on just that area. Letting that sit for a few minutes, I sprayed it off with water and backed the car back into the garage. I used towels to dry the area. To make sure it was dry before doing any polishing, I then trimmed and mowed the lawn. That took just over an hour. I'm glad I did it in the morning because it got warmer as the day went on. I have been diligent to make sure I put sunscreen on my ears and neck while mowing. I wear a hat and a bandanna around my neck to help other areas. Once I was finished with the lawn, I went in and attempted to polish the license plate area. I used my cordless drill since I have a foam cone attachment for getting in the hard to reach areas. I would say I removed 95% of the dirt that was in that area that was stained on the paint. Also, as luck would have it, the LED bulbs from Diode Dynamics came in the mail and I changed those out. It was easier that I thought it would be and I'm glad I looked up how to do it on the web. I almost messed up the light housing. While I was changing these out, I had applied Gtechniq ceramic coating to the license plate area in hopes that later, it will keep that area clean in the future. After applying the last coat of ceramic coating, it was 5:00 PM. I also managed to get my 12,500 steps in for the day, which marked 175 day goal streak. I feel yesterday was productive.

Dirty license plate area

Clean license plate area

The LED bulbs for reverse and turn signals

Reverse lights before. I did not know until then that one was out.

Reverse lights after

Turn signals before

Turn signals after. The picture doesn't look like that much of a difference, but in person it is

A turtle on the walking trail at Forcepoint - June 14th, 2016

Storm clouds after the gym - June 14th, 2015

June 14th, 2020

World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day

June 1st is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day. Until recently, I would not have know this day exists. I was unaware that there was a such a thing as narcissistic abuse or that it could effect a person in such an adverse way. Another thing for people to know is that narcissists are not all men. As my abuser was a woman.

I like to think that I was a person that could not fall into what happened to me. Yet, it did happen and it lasted for five years. Besides the narcissistic abuse the relationship also had other aspects that I was aware of, but was told they would change. That promise never happened, along with many other promises she told me.

The hardest part for me in getting over what has happened is understanding that everything I believed about her, everything she said to me and everything she did for me was all a lie. I was just used for her narcissistic supply for whatever she needed at that time. Months of counseling has helped me understand, but I will admit I am still messed up in my head. #IfMyWoundsWereVisible

And now, onto something better. I washed my car this morning. Again. It was dirty from the drive yesterday and the rain we ran into during the drive. I don't mind washing my car because it's something that makes me happy. I also have today off of work, so that's a plus as well. I still have not heard back about the question I had about missing parts for the brakes I ordered. If I do not hear anything later today, I will send another email. I do not like doing that, but the order said one thing and I got something else. If that was how it was supposed to be, then that should have been said at the beginning of the process.

June 1st, 2020