June 1st is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness
Day. Until recently, I would not have know this day exists. I was unaware that there was a such a thing as
narcissistic abuse or that it could effect a person in such an adverse way. Another thing for people to know
is that narcissists are not all men. As my abuser was a woman.
I like to think that I was a person that could not fall into what happened
to me. Yet, it did happen and it lasted for five years. Besides the narcissistic abuse the relationship also
had other aspects that I was aware of, but was told they would change. That promise never happened, along
with many other promises she told me.
The hardest part for me in getting over what has happened is understanding
that everything I believed about her, everything she said to me and everything she did for me was all a lie.
I was just used for her narcissistic supply for whatever she needed at that time. Months of counseling has
helped me understand, but I will admit I am still messed up in my head. #IfMyWoundsWereVisible
And now, onto something better. I washed my car this morning. Again. It
was dirty from the drive yesterday and the rain we ran into during the drive. I don't mind washing my car
because it's something that makes me happy. I also have today off of work, so that's a plus as well. I still
have not heard back about the question I had about missing parts for the brakes I ordered. If I do not hear
anything later today, I will send another email. I do not like doing that, but the order said one thing and
I got something else. If that was how it was supposed to be, then that should have been said at the
beginning of the process.
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| June 1st, 2020 |
